I don't quite like my position now.
After being away from work, I realise that many things are beyond my ability. I'm not being meticulous and seems like I'm losing my curiosity on new things. I was being questioned, and unable to find an answer for the tabulation I compiled when I discuss with Jag. So embarrassing~!
On the other hand, Hy becomes fiercely & demanding more attention whenever she has the chance to be with us. She will be charmed when seeing us home, but gets cranky easily if I didn't attend to her. She was being punished to her 'thinking corner' almost every evening. One mid night of this week, she shake me up and pestering for water, then pee at 4+, then milk at 5+, then my alarm rang & she asked for pee. I had to step out of the house surreptitiously. She dozed off at 7.30am. I heard my mum said, she woke up at 8+am and see no daddy & mummy, she threw tantrum & fell back into sleep again till 12+.
Poor girl who is unwilling in this absent of mother. I don't spank her for her misbehaviour, but pretending angry and asked her to stand at her 'thinking corner'. I'm not sure I should pamper her by fulfilling her extra volume of request. Or to be firm on rejecting certain ridiculous (to us) request. My mum is trying her very best to be nice & caring, unfortunately, the fussy little one is not appreciating, and attempting to cross over the forbidden boundary.
A colleague who seems thinking of quiting job and be a full time mum was asking me whether worth staying at home with the little one or not. I said, yes for sure. The only problem is, the transition period of mine now (without telling her the detail).
I don't know how bad will this transition be. Giving up is certainly the easier way of solving the problem...
It's never easy to balance between work and kids... and it'll definitely take time to get adjusted to the new routine for yourself and the little one...
ReplyDeleteshe is craving for your attention that's why she's acting up more often... if possible, spend more quiet time with her just on a one-on-one basis...reading, bathing her, a meal outside together, crafts, play games etc... a moment where your full attention is given to her... it's not going to be easy... just have to take a step at a time...
*hugz*
Hi
ReplyDeleteHugs to you dear. Transition is never easy. For you and your new job, and for HY with coping with her new environment. Do hang in there, give it some time.
Perhaps starting a new hobby like sewing could be therapeutic? Hee...
Give yourself and HY some time..like what pauline said..it is not easy to jiggle to yr new adjustment..give HY assurance that you spend quality time with her..she needs lots of hugs and kisses..
ReplyDeleteAs for wk, up till now I also kena complaint eg too fierce to students, only late by 5mins, dirty the floor cuz paint dropped on the floor which is unavoidable..of course I am get upset..but when the moment I reached home..my heart melts when I see Cherrlyn..she is the one who bring me joy and laughter..
i'm lucky to have you all as friends. God not just send an angel, but 3 ^o^. thank you so much for the spirited words & kind advices. wish you all a wonderful day~!
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