we are tested, once again

hy is ill again. fever, serious constipation, cough, thought she was getting better but i think the virus transformed and somehow she vomits whatever she ate or drank. even medicine or plain water.

SC called a minute ago, her blood test result confirmed her having viral infection and needed to be admitted to KK hospital for treatment. i can hear her cried badly far from the phone and understand that she wants mummy.

the typical mummy's guilt came and visit me again. she has not been this ill for quite some time back. i feel very bad this time as i am not longer able to focus on her. i have to attend to baby xy fully and rely on SC to console her. honestly a big applause to daddy: for taking time off to babysit her 3 days in a row.

the girls and i will be in hell without him.

it is 3am, and i miss my chatter thumbelina anxiously.