to feed or not to feed

after the episode of stomach flu, i am, very unfortunately, having urinary tract infection. i was deeply dismayed when Dr Tan told me that i need to take the full course of the antibiotic medicine. after hearing me as a breast feeding mum, baby is 5 months, blah blah blah... she prescribed Apo-Nitrofurantoin 50mg for me.

i was hesitated. pondering the the consequences of to take and not to take. it really took me few days to think (without understanding more about the medicine)...

when i finally started on the first day, she fussed over the incremental frequent use of milk bottle and no latching on me for milk; i was, on the other hand, absolutely miserable for a sleepless night for:

1. warming up the milk from the fridge (my precious storage); bottle feed her and clean the bottle;
2. pumping and throwing the breast milk; clean the pump and container.

not to mention she woke up more frequent to look for me or should i say, the nipples.

i become zombie in the office the next day.

but visited Jade meimei's blog and an advice from Mummy Ariel trigger my curiosity (stupid mum lost her curiosity!) to find out more about my illness, the prescription and breastfeeding.

i rang the doctor again to double assure that the antibiotic is really safe for me to breast feed baby bomber. i surfed to read more too.

the true is, "...Nitrofurantoin appears in trace amounts in breast milk. Nursing mothers should take this medication with caution only after the potential benefits have been weighed against the risks to the nursing infant."

so how? how to weigh the invisible?

i then decided to take "the middle road", throw away those i expressed in daytime (when i am in office), nurse baby bomber directly at night.